I realized about 2 weeks ago that things had gotten out of control. I worked hard...and I mean HARD to lose 146lbs between 2017-2018 and I had slowly relaxed my control and let bad habits come back. I had gained 50lbs back and if I wanted to hit my goal then I needed to be real with myself and hold myself accountable. I had a holiday break between Christmas Eve and New Years and felt that it was the perfect time to reset my priorities and eating habits. I decided that I was going to start my detox on December 28th. So...December 23rd, I went to the store and purchased everything I needed for a week detox. I do the 5 day pouch reset and recondition my body and mind. On Christmas Eve, I woke up with a sore throat but I was not going to let that stop or change my plans. I found my eating journal that I had abandoned 9 months ago and started planning. I posted in my Bariatric Group for the first time in months. I posted just a general Happy Holidays to see if anyone was going to respond. We are all 3 months out and we all have stopped posting like e used to. Luckily I got some responses. One of my first lessons learned was that support from people who are sharing the experience with you is necessary. On December 26th I ordered Chinese food for myself...a bad eating funeral. I obsess if I feel like I am depriving myself and then I self-sabotage. I know it's not healthy but it is a part of my personality and I know my triggers. I knew that if I denied myself before going back to healthy eating I would mostly cheat on the liquid diet. I ordered mostly protein food but they were not healthy. I only ordered enough to last through the 27th. The morning of the 27th I got up the nerve to stand on the scale and frankly, I did not believe the number. It showed a 10lb gain since the week before. I had been eating of plan but I know I am not that bad. I know that high sodium foods cause me to hold a lot of water weight so I remembered the number but did not write it down. I wanted to see what the scale said after the first day of the liquid diet. It was finally December 28th and time to start.
Dec 28th -The first day was not as bad as I was expecting. I had my protein shakes, water, soups, jello and yogurt on time and did not feel to bad. I was actually excited about that. I had all my "meals" and met all my nutritional goals for the day. I also went for a nice walk around the neighborhood. By the afternoon though the cold virus and sapped all my energy and I stayed in bed for the rest of the day. The scale dropped 6lbs!
Dec 29th - Well...this day was mostly a bitch. I woke up feeling crappy from the cold. My bestie also cooked today and the smell of meat cooking was quite tortuous. I stayed on point though. I met all my nutritional goals except the activity. I really did not have the energy for it. I ended up going to bed really early. The high point was that I weighed myself and the scale went down another 7lbs. I knew the extra ten was because of sodium and water weight.
Dec 30- Well...this morning is the end of the liquid phase! I am down another 3lbs so I have lost 6lbs of real weight. I am very happy with that. Today is the day of soft foods so I can have scrambled eggs and canned chicken and tuna. I am happy about that. I will still include Greek yogurt and one protein shake to make sure that I get my protein in. I will also up my water and complete an arm workout today.
